Well... soooo. chess game over?!?
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Weeping Willows
He said he wants to rip out one tree and replace it with a weeping willow. That made me smile. I remember in high school when I was sad and lonely I would take the bus or drive to Forest Park and sit underneath a weeping willow. I would usually cry, question Bob. I felt safe, hidden away.
My body is burning from the disappointment I feel towards myself. All I want is to be able to run away to that tree. Cry. Hide.
I am scared of what is to come. I feel like Bob has taken a vacation away from me. Maybe he is sitting underneath the tree.
My body is burning from the disappointment I feel towards myself. All I want is to be able to run away to that tree. Cry. Hide.
I am scared of what is to come. I feel like Bob has taken a vacation away from me. Maybe he is sitting underneath the tree.
Monday, February 28, 2011
The Sun is Shining...
at least it was yesterday. Oh and also yesterday, I found out my uncle died on Thursday.
I immediately started to smile. I even did a little dance. When I got home, I popped a bottle of champagne.
My only sadness of this news: he will be buried next to grandma. He doesn't deserve that privilege.
I immediately started to smile. I even did a little dance. When I got home, I popped a bottle of champagne.
My only sadness of this news: he will be buried next to grandma. He doesn't deserve that privilege.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
So...
Here we go again!
For a couple of months I will be writing in a different religious blog. I am not abandoning my journey... just rerouting it for awhile...
http://buiismtaketwo.blogspot.com/
For a couple of months I will be writing in a different religious blog. I am not abandoning my journey... just rerouting it for awhile...
http://buiismtaketwo.blogspot.com/
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
The Reverend
Last Thursday I met a man. He introduced himself as "The Reverend." A student of theology and a very interesting person.
Of course being me, I introduced myself, shook his hand, smiled sweetly. After a few seconds of small talk I was about to walk away when he looked at me and asked, "What do you believe in?" Considering we were at a corporate networking event, a religious question was the last thing I expected to hear. My answer, "It's complicated, but when I was in seventh grade, I started my own religion, Buiism!"
A few reactions took place in the following seconds. My best friend laughed and walked away, my boyfriend encouraged more questions and the Reverend fell in love. Ok, the last one is a bit of an exaggeration but I never met anyone more interested in hearing about the philosophy that is Buiism.
We talked for awhile, each minute becoming more exciting because we saw eye to eye on the most random points. Soon we bid adieu and promised to keep in touch.
It has been five days since that conversation and I have not kept my end of the promise yet, nor spoke with my best friend that doesn't take Buiism seriously. The only thing I can myself now is, "What would Bob do?"
Of course being me, I introduced myself, shook his hand, smiled sweetly. After a few seconds of small talk I was about to walk away when he looked at me and asked, "What do you believe in?" Considering we were at a corporate networking event, a religious question was the last thing I expected to hear. My answer, "It's complicated, but when I was in seventh grade, I started my own religion, Buiism!"
A few reactions took place in the following seconds. My best friend laughed and walked away, my boyfriend encouraged more questions and the Reverend fell in love. Ok, the last one is a bit of an exaggeration but I never met anyone more interested in hearing about the philosophy that is Buiism.
We talked for awhile, each minute becoming more exciting because we saw eye to eye on the most random points. Soon we bid adieu and promised to keep in touch.
It has been five days since that conversation and I have not kept my end of the promise yet, nor spoke with my best friend that doesn't take Buiism seriously. The only thing I can myself now is, "What would Bob do?"
The Perfect Song...
to describe this blog! Thanks Carolina Liar...
Wait, I'm wrong
Should've done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for
Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord
Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for
It obviously goes on but no need to repeat. Every time this song comes on, I think about my relationship with God and now I also think about this blog. Thought I would share.
Should've done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for
Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord
Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for
It obviously goes on but no need to repeat. Every time this song comes on, I think about my relationship with God and now I also think about this blog. Thought I would share.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Synagogue Saturday!
Enough procrastination... time to get my self to a synagogue. I have made the arrangements to go on Saturday morning and honestly, I am really looking forward to it. The last time I was in any type of religious setting was for a wedding... I think that counts!
World Religions class has been over for almost two weeks now and I have not meditated since. Prayer? A few times. It's not that I don't want to because I do, I am just too busy. Too busy for God? I have a feeling that is a common excuse for people to give.
As I sit at Starbucks, I just have a mini reflection session. I was thinking about the weddings I attend and the last few have been Catholic. When the crowd knows what to say in response to the sermon (I think this is the right word) or when they go up for Communion, I feel my body tensing up. Maybe I get a little uncomfortable. Why is that?
I don't believe the people or their faith makes me uncomfortable, I am pretty accepting and open-minded, I thinks its just the thought of organized religion as a whole. So then that means I am a hypocrite because of Buiism! Maybe not considering I don't have any followers to actually be considered a religion. Ok we're still good!
So synagogue Saturday should be fun... and I promise I will not try to convert anyone to Buiism while I am there!
World Religions class has been over for almost two weeks now and I have not meditated since. Prayer? A few times. It's not that I don't want to because I do, I am just too busy. Too busy for God? I have a feeling that is a common excuse for people to give.
As I sit at Starbucks, I just have a mini reflection session. I was thinking about the weddings I attend and the last few have been Catholic. When the crowd knows what to say in response to the sermon (I think this is the right word) or when they go up for Communion, I feel my body tensing up. Maybe I get a little uncomfortable. Why is that?
I don't believe the people or their faith makes me uncomfortable, I am pretty accepting and open-minded, I thinks its just the thought of organized religion as a whole. So then that means I am a hypocrite because of Buiism! Maybe not considering I don't have any followers to actually be considered a religion. Ok we're still good!
So synagogue Saturday should be fun... and I promise I will not try to convert anyone to Buiism while I am there!
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